I hate it. I was helpless to do anything except watch her lie there. She wanted to talk but it was somewhat incoherent. And all I could do was to hold her hand. I'm really scared now. I don't know how much time there's left. Fuck.
Mad World
All around are me are familiar faces
 Worn out places, worn out faces
 Bright and early for the daily races
 Going nowhere, going nowhere
 And their tears are filling up their glasses
 No expression, no expression
 Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrows
 No tomorrow, no tomorrow
 And I find it kind of funny
 I find it kind of sad
 The dreams in which I'm dying
 Are the best I ever had
 I find it hard to tell you
 I find it hard to take
 When people run in circles
 It's a very very, 
 Mad world, Mad world
 Children waiting for the day they feel good
 Happy birthday, happy birthday
 May they feel the way that every child should
 Sit and listen, sit and listen
 Went to school and I was very nervous
 No one knew me, no one knew me
 Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
 Look right through me, look right through me
 And I find it kind of funny, 
 I find it kind of sad
 The dreams in which I'm dying
 Are the best I've ever had
 I find it hard to tell you
 I find it hard to take
 When people run in circles 
 It's a very very
 Mad world, Mad world
 Mad world, Mad world
I've been listening to this song over and over again. I don't know why either.
            
